Reality Chek!

Like Aircel says, 'Its time to move on!' I do muster up courage and get ready to move on.. but everytime there are layers of emotions which envelope me. Starting from the thrill of taking up a new challenge to the apprehension of getting out of my comfort zone. From being a student.. to being an employee now, its a major transformation. Not just in my life pattern, Bank account but my way of life. The resposiblity factor drives my days now and the numbers hijack my sleep! The passion keeps me going.. but the initial hiccups give me a realtity check at times.. Its not as easy as I thought! But yea.. I give myslef the dose again.. Its time to pull up your socks.. your in the big bad world.. and there is no saviour here.. but U yourself!

and look Im talking brands now!:D

A few last things!

The Nostalgia has been in the air for a while now.. Like everyone else, I have been noting the last few things that we will be doing together, Like the last day in class, the last presentation, the last time we all take a lesson and maybe the last time we all come together as the batch of 2009.
But, today, when one of my batchmates came and hugged me saying ,that 'this is probably the last time I am seeing you', the thought hit me harder! It is all indeed drawing to a close. There is a hollow feeling growing by the day as you bid adieu to people you have shared your life with, for the past two years.
I dread the day I will leave. The thought of seeing an empty cupboard, packed suitcases and a 'clean' room fills up my throat. Maybe I will never come back to this city, where I have spent some memorable moments. I am just trying to recollect them all and take them back with me.
Maybe I will never see some of these people again, as each of them embarks on a solitary journey where the thought of a random classmate will not live very long. I will never walk in these corridoors again with the same authority that I do today, never take walks in the campus at 2 am and maybe I will never get back this madness. But then, life usually does not give you so many choices. At times, you just have to hug all these memories and take them with you to the next destination...
Just wish to say a good bye and good luck to all the people I came across in these 2 wonderful years! Thank you everyone..Its indeed been a pleasure sharing some of the best moments of my life with you..
Cheers!

A step or two

You think and then think again. When the world stops for a second and you are pulled back into time, like a tornado of emotions gripping you by the arm, clutching your reluctant elbow and taking you back .. down memory lane.. where you giggle past every laughter like the butterfly that smiles over the sunflowers,wipe over every tear drop like the flowing trousseau of a bride walking down the aisle, eve drop at every secret we kept in the hollow nights and forbidden days and silently walk past every moment of nothingness.
I am being swept away with this tornado. Its taking me back to the past two years of my life. As I am stepping past something which I thought would be journey that would never end.. A quest for something I would never acheive or a battle against an opponent that never existed, but it turned out to be quite the opposite. I maynot detail out what it means to me.. but there has surely been a transformation. The 104 weeks have competently changed a naive.. protected girl into a somewhat mature individual, who is set to get what she wants in life.
The past 24 months have not just given me a direction, relationships, hope, a heartbreak, sensibility, maturity ,745 photograps but countless precious memories. From the sleepy mornings, to the hungry afternoons and drunk nights.. the days have been eventful.
I can look back and close my eyes as they well up with a tear or two.. but I do know,that I need to take a few more steps ..into another lane.. silent and undiscovered.

I am a Dreamer!

I am a dreamer,
I dream all the way;
Be it the murkiest of night, or the brightest of day.
I dream like the birds, who wish to fly past the horizon,
I dream like the waves , who die against the tall dam,
I dream like the poor kid, who stands by the bakers shop.
Longing for the pie, over the oven top.
I dream, of the rainbow, I dream of the star,
I dream of everything close and all yet so far.

The winds change every hour and compel me to change my course,
The water over pours and tries to wash away the hope,
Yet, I stand so firm,
Living with a smile as strong,
With countless wishes, still unfulfilled
And a few more desires, to add to the bill.
All this ,makes up my little world,
Of sprints and tumbles ,both to stay,
Yes, I am a dreamer,
I dream all the way,
Be it the murkiest of night, or the brightest of day..

'TEMP'

Its like my name, I write on the sun kissed sand,
It’s the footprints which drown under the warm gush of water,
Its like the thousand ripples which make way from the same point, struggling to overtake each other,
Its like candy floss, melting in your mouth,
Its like the dark clouds, hiding the bright sunlight,
It’s the perfume, your love wears,
It’s like the first dew drop, on the sleepy petal,
Its like everything which is there now, but will not stay that way forever.
It’s the one thing we deny, the one thing we close our eyes to..
It’s the one thought that sometimes shakes up our soul..
It’s the one word which spells truth..
We call it‘ temporary’

Unexpectations!!!

Never Expect! This is one thing that every mother, every mentor, every lover, every guardian preaches their loved ones.. It is something that would be the ultimate ' enlightenment' for a tame soul. But when one gives it a deep thought, it is something which is the hardest to achieve, it is another name to attaining salvation. Why I say so is quite obvious, its something you get when uleave behind a lot of your materialistic persuits, when you become content.

SOmetimes, it is best to be neutral about things. They say, Be Positive all the time, but no matter how hard you try, its circumstantially and humanly impossible to do so. You are demoralised at so many instances , feel low, and at that time some one saying .. Oh! Come on! Be Positive! is surely not a welcome suggestion! So eventually , you realise that it is best to be neutral about a lot of things in life, do not have a vision of the outcome or try and fathom the happiness or despair it would bring eventually. This would make you more complacent and patient about things and sometimes, the happiness you get when you achieve that one most 'unexpected' thing would know no bounds! and that would be the concept of ' unexpectation' .. I like the word iv coined:)

Overcoming Obstacles

Don’t be a coward, fearful and weak
Be the last one to quit, and the first one to speak
Don’t hide your face from the light of day
Be courageous in life and stay that way
No need to run from your trails, troubles and problems
Have confidence in your step as you reflect how to solve them
Yet, if you happen to fall, don’t lie there and die
Getup without a thought, and hold your head up high
Be wise, courageous, bold and brave And life will be worth living, from your birth to your grave